confusion is tough.

For the past two months, I've been more confused about what to do with my life than ever before. I'm definitely having to be extremely patient and just go day by day, but of course it gets kinda hard sometimes. Well, last night and this morning, I've been thinking about relationships. I have opportunities to date people, but there's been this constant pull to stay single. I don't know if that's completely because of my past commitment, or because I know i's better to be single right now. I've decided, though, that right now, it is really good that I am single. I still have so much growing up to do, and there are so many things God is still teaching me before it's time to be with someone and spend the rest of my life with them. It's been so tough figuring out what I want, but it shouldn't be about that at all. I need to put God's plans for my life in front of my wants and desires. He totally knows what's best for me and if I can just listen to him and be obedient, He's absolutely going to bless me because of that.

God is most satisfied in us when we are most satisfied in Him.

i'm so excited

Since school started, I've been distracted and bummed a lot. But in the past week, God has been revealing tons of things to me. I've been so lazy in my relationship with Him, and that's got to change. I totally need to be reading my bible more, and my devotional too. Kristie and I went to Saddleback Chruch this past Sunday night and they were having sign-ups for small groups for The Fourty Days of Purpose. We decided we should host a small group in our appartment every Thursday night so that's going to be really exciting. Even though I'm not a great leader and feel extremely inadequate to teach, God can use that for His glory. There are so many times in life when I don't take chances because I don't have enough faith, but it's time to DO something.


"Do not merely listen to the word, and so deceive yourselves. Do what it says." James 1:22